The End
I've decided to move everything I own into storage this weekend and sleep in my car and save money. The gyms are opening back up again anyway.
I will just have to streamline my life again and simplify and purge what little I have accumulated over the 2 years since my last car dwelling.
Joe finally pushed me to my edge. I informed him today that I was upset with my brother attempting suicide last week( I found out today)- not once did he ask how I was doing but kept stating that my brother was a weakling and an attention whore. (He was drunk).This made me angry...so instead of showing my anger I went quietly back to bed. Resolute. He made it perfectly clear that hes better off without me and that's fine. Tommorow I am getting off early and so I will go secure a storage unit somewhere between where I'll be sleeping and my work and gym. It would be easier for me to stay where I am and safer I think however I want as far away from Joe as possible. Maybe in a few months I will feel comfortable getting a place of my own but for now I just need to live cheap and put money away. I have also decided to cut all ties with Roomie. He has made no attempts to talk to me during all this even as a friend and quite frankly I need to conserve that energy.
Joe made a comment about why he has never met any of my friends or been to my work. I told him i dont get close to people and that i keep my work and home life separate. He doesn't understand this. But...its relationships like these that cause me to furthur away from people and future relationships. He is so predictable. I helped him and now that hes on his feet again he doesn't need me. It's my own fault. But..I'll never allow it to happen again. I'm done.
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The happiest years of my life have been the years I have lived out of a suitcase, travelling on mass transit. I didn't want a car because intercontinental driving is still not an option, with the single exception of the Eur-Asian land mass. It is possible to drive between the American continents, but it's a rough drive. I love the global connections I feel on mass transit. This connection leads to that connection and another and another until you have circled the globe.
I miss the unencumbered lifestyle of minimalism. Far less housework attached, among many other bennies.
Returning the thread to you, prayers in progress that you can resist the next romance round of the next Joe you encounter. Both genders of *They* are in generous supply in our broken world, especially among the romantically inclined.
Arfie. I have lost my romantic inclination for the time being. I need to get my life straight before I allow someone else to enter it. I especially need to work on trust issues. I did the math, I can indeed afford a place however it will be tight for awhile. I'm in the middle of the fence about it because I'd ha e to start accumulating new stuff again for my own place and I'm just not sure I want the hassle..that's why the car dwelling appeals to me. Complete freedom or at least more.
Will be praying for you SageLife. I'm sorry for your family troubles. God bless.
Proof unavailable but I solidly believe taking my time through the homeless phases of my healing journey allowed me to be more at peace with the life which grew out of my healing journey.
Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose, buttttttaaaa. . . To have ^it^ all, you must risk ^it^ all. As a side bonus, the need to work so hard for my grub stake kept me too tired to torture myself, much less get into messy relationships.
I will pray for you.
God Bless
I am indeed more focused on "chasing paper" right now above everything else. Even thinking about going back to school to update my medical billing certification. Ive got to start thinking of the future-