The Darkness

It has me.  I can't sleep but I crave sleep constantly.  I cut, I think about depressing shit, I am addicted to reading about the sadistic nature of teenage youth.  I walk around like I'm fine and everyone believes it.  The truth is though, that I don't even know if I want to get better.  I like the darkness, I like being twisted.  It's what makes me, me right?  God maybe I need more help then I thought...