the breakups

No time for something deep tonight. No time to monkey with syntax , structure or flow. I just broke up with a woman and I'm telling myself that, this is a horrible reason to head for the bar, after 4 years of sobriety. And in truth, I will not be heading for the bar, because I have 4 years of sobriety. But on nights like this you question all of that. Nights like this you question everything in your life that means anything. Nights like this you want to push the pedal to the floor, take your hands from the wheel and laugh like an asshole until you hit the wall. Because your so hurt and angry. Because it all seems such a waste. Because it all has no value. But none of that matters. None of it ever did. Tonight it will wash through me like black water through a bag. And in the morning, I will wake to find myself strangely invigorated... And ready to start again.