The bits and pieces of a memory of Andrew Guidry
"Trigger"
I remember Andrew raping me in Texas three years ago. I remember coming inside the house and hearing my daughter crying. So I went to check up on her thats when I saw my brother with my daughter. I thought he was tring to play with Lyric to get her to stop crying at first. But I was wrong thats when I realized he was hurting her. I freaked out and I tried to stop him and he grabbed me and threw me on the bed next to her. I tried to fight him off but I couldn't. I tried to reach out to her to let her know it's going to be ok. But I couldn't reach her. (I'm so shaky, I want to cry, it's hard to right this memory but I know I have to get it out.) I can remember seeing her face full of tears and hearing her screaming out to me as he raped me in front of her. I tried to move to protcet her from him. But I couldn't I tried my body was limp no matter how hard I tried it wouldn't move. I rememder begging him not to do this to us but he wouldn't stop. I didn't know what else to do I was frozen in fear. (I feel so scared.)I remember crying as I looked at her screaming for me.I can rememeber not being able to breath because my face was pressed aganist the mattress his weight on me as he pulls my paints down and forces his penis inside of me. I can still hear him telling my daughter I liked it you see she's not screaming like you did. It feels good doesn't it. You like it don't you. I know you do. You like it ruff take it. You know you want it. You see Lyric she's not fighting your mother likes it. I can still feel the pain from him raping me. I still feel like I can't breath like his weght is still on me my back hurting me . My vagina and anis riped by Andrew forceing himself inside of me.
I remember Andrew raping me in Texas three years ago. I remember coming inside the house and hearing my daughter crying. So I went to check up on her thats when I saw my brother with my daughter. I thought he was tring to play with Lyric to get her to stop crying at first. But I was wrong thats when I realized he was hurting her. I freaked out and I tried to stop him and he grabbed me and threw me on the bed next to her. I tried to fight him off but I couldn't. I tried to reach out to her to let her know it's going to be ok. But I couldn't reach her. (I'm so shaky, I want to cry, it's hard to right this memory but I know I have to get it out.) I can remember seeing her face full of tears and hearing her screaming out to me as he raped me in front of her. I tried to move to protcet her from him. But I couldn't I tried my body was limp no matter how hard I tried it wouldn't move. I rememder begging him not to do this to us but he wouldn't stop. I didn't know what else to do I was frozen in fear. (I feel so scared.)I remember crying as I looked at her screaming for me.I can rememeber not being able to breath because my face was pressed aganist the mattress his weight on me as he pulls my paints down and forces his penis inside of me. I can still hear him telling my daughter I liked it you see she's not screaming like you did. It feels good doesn't it. You like it don't you. I know you do. You like it ruff take it. You know you want it. You see Lyric she's not fighting your mother likes it. I can still feel the pain from him raping me. I still feel like I can't breath like his weght is still on me my back hurting me . My vagina and anis riped by Andrew forceing himself inside of me.
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Oh, Wheezie....
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Suz
Wheezie. I am so sorry this happened to you and your little girl, but glad you were able to say it here. Were you ever able to report this, or get any legal action taken on your behalf? I know you care so much for your daughter and have helped her a lot. Does it look like she might eventually be ok? What about you? I hope you both get the advocacy you deserve, even if it hasn\'t happened yet.
I just remembered this two days ago so I haven\'t reported it yet. My daughter has told me this for 2 years I just suppressed it so deeply I didn\'t remember and wasn\'t sure of what exactly happened to us.It has been a very bad journey we have faced with the judicial system.Both of us being revictimized by three seperate police departments for three years straight.It pushed us both back into denial but hopefully remembering this is proof that I am ready to start dealing with my past again.As soon as I am ready and feel strong enough I will be reporting this to the advocacy in the county where my brother lives.Hopefully two victims should be enough to get these people to do there job.I read a couple of months ago that a man had been arrested for raping and nearly murdering and 10 year old girl.The real tragedy of that is another family had tried to press charges on this man a year before and faced the same things I have face with the judicial system in Texas.It was posted on facebook and there were so many comments left with other victims stating the same about Texas and how they don\'t arrest child rapist.It is a major problem our judicial system has to change.