The Behinder I Get
I decided to play with the font and color this morning... actually the enlarged type makes it easier for me to see... Well I'm still making a bit of progress... down 26 pounds since the start of my journey. Working on keeping what I've got off and inching down. Surgery has been delayed and that was a disappointment although all in all I think it is probably a blessing.
My heart doctor sent his report in and while he did approve me for the surgery, he said I was a moderate to high risk for surgery. I have to say if he thought I was at risk he should have said something about that to me when I had seen him the month before. At that time he had sent a report to my primary care doctor saying that everything looked good the anterior infarct site was clear and told me he'd see me in 6 months... So that's why I'm thinking his report to the Bariatric doctors was more about CYA covering your ass... and they grabbed that and said... hmmm we can run a bunch of expensive heart tests etc and make a few bucks out of this.... Ahhhh well sometimes life is sucky...
The way it was scheduled for the end of April beginning of May... in June when I'm expecting company and a short trip I would have been in the middle of recovering from the surgery which would have been problematic... Now it won't happen before July and possibly August... so I don't have to worry about being in the throes of anything in June so maybe this as I say has worked out for the best...
Maybe Cara intervened for me... Now baby girl if you'd send me the winning lottery numbers... No honey... not the day after the drawing... Having a joke with Cara inside my head... Oh I so loved her sense of fun... and for me inside my head she's still cracking jokes... I can hear her saying as I'm writing... Careful mom... the guys in the white coats are watching...
Oh... a funny i want to share with yall... so after Cara crossed I had several visits from her... for those of you who believe that isn't a problem... but for a psychiatrist I had to see for Social Security... he described the visits as hallucinations I was having... Some folks will believe he was right... and some of yall know and I'm truly happy for you that you do know... is that sometimes we are blessed by visits from loved ones... ahhh well.... if the psych doctor is happy to believe I had hallucinations let him ramble... LOL
My heart doctor sent his report in and while he did approve me for the surgery, he said I was a moderate to high risk for surgery. I have to say if he thought I was at risk he should have said something about that to me when I had seen him the month before. At that time he had sent a report to my primary care doctor saying that everything looked good the anterior infarct site was clear and told me he'd see me in 6 months... So that's why I'm thinking his report to the Bariatric doctors was more about CYA covering your ass... and they grabbed that and said... hmmm we can run a bunch of expensive heart tests etc and make a few bucks out of this.... Ahhhh well sometimes life is sucky...
The way it was scheduled for the end of April beginning of May... in June when I'm expecting company and a short trip I would have been in the middle of recovering from the surgery which would have been problematic... Now it won't happen before July and possibly August... so I don't have to worry about being in the throes of anything in June so maybe this as I say has worked out for the best...
Maybe Cara intervened for me... Now baby girl if you'd send me the winning lottery numbers... No honey... not the day after the drawing... Having a joke with Cara inside my head... Oh I so loved her sense of fun... and for me inside my head she's still cracking jokes... I can hear her saying as I'm writing... Careful mom... the guys in the white coats are watching...
Oh... a funny i want to share with yall... so after Cara crossed I had several visits from her... for those of you who believe that isn't a problem... but for a psychiatrist I had to see for Social Security... he described the visits as hallucinations I was having... Some folks will believe he was right... and some of yall know and I'm truly happy for you that you do know... is that sometimes we are blessed by visits from loved ones... ahhh well.... if the psych doctor is happy to believe I had hallucinations let him ramble... LOL
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Congrats on your progress.. I love my visits and know that they are very real but I too let others believe whatever they choose.. we are all so different.. sending you love my friend and hoping your surgery goes well once it is scheduled.
WooHoo on your success thus far!
I LOVE my \"hallucinations\" and pray for them daily!!!!
I hear Kala cracking jokes and \"trying\" to keep me in line too!!! LOVE IT! And I love you my sweet friend!!!
Five more pounds, KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK. I could hear cara through your words cracking the jokes, too funny. I pray for my Matthew moments, or as your psych would say hallucinations. I love you my sweet friend and wish you were able to make the retreat. Hugs and love!