The Beginning of a new me

Today December 20th of 2014 marks the beginning of my long road to fighting against my compulsive lying problem. Apart from admitting it in this website, I have finally admitted to my best friend that I have a problem and that I have started taking steps in order to actually fix it. They usually say that admitting you have a problem in a way should either make you feel a little better or even relieve you of some of the weight. Yet I honestly feel worse because in way I am still unable to accept this is who I've become rather I'm unable to accept I have become this untrustworthy person. Honestly I just hope be better soon, to be the trustworthy person I know I can be.