The Beginning

 This is my first journal entry as today is my first day on daily strength therefore I will just write about what is going on.
Me and my husband found out last week that the ONLY way to get prego is to do the IVF with ICSI.  When the doctor told us this all I wanted to do is cry.  I felt like the world was falling around me. Me and my husband new that we did not have the money to do the IVF so we just let depression get us and wanted to get drunk and forget about things.  Then we decided to tell his mother who has agreed to loan us the money so that we can have a try at it. (one try argg)
We have set up the finance portion and are awaiting my period to start so that I can start a 3 week round of birth control first then start the shots and do the ER.
All I think about is IVF! I eat, sleep and dream IVF.  Will it work? What if it doesn't work?
Hopefully everything will work out ok and I will have good news to report.

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EELC
EELC

Infertility is a huge emotional rollercoaster, and moving to IVF makes the ups and downs even harder. However, it is totally doable -- even with all the shots and the hormones and everything, it\'s easier than you think. Finances are hard, but I keep telling myself that I would spend that much money on a car, so why not a kid? Good luck and I\'ll be your cycle buddy come August!
Wannababybad
Wannababybad

I\'m sorry that you guys recieved this news! But you most definitly found the right place! There are MANY women that totally understand your frustration and depression. I too have struugled with IF for 2 years. We did 7 IUI\'s (1 resulting in pregnancy and then miscarriage at 8 weeks) and recentely just did our 1st IVF this week! Its so exciting but nerve racking at the the same time...haha! Hang in there..your gonna do GREAT!! :)
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Good luck.. on your journey.. I am almost done with mine.. i am hoping mine is a positive and i will pray for you too...