The Begining

Hello anyone who comes across this,

Today I have joined this site in the begining steps to become the person that I wish to be. I'm tired of being the person I am. Who is that person you might ask. Well I'm here to tell you that she is selfish, shes a liar, manipulative, self disrtuctive, she has been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, shes abusive to say the least. All things I can no longer stand to be or not know how to control. I've lived with emotionaly abusive parents, raised 3 children that werent mine. I met the love of my life when I turned 18, he saved me from the bad place I was in, gave me everything no questions asked, even forgave me for cheating on him only months into our relationship and married me only a month later. I vowed then I would never be that person again and I would do everything in my power to become the best person I could be. 3 years when by and I found myself in that situation once again and again made the mistake of cheating/lying to my husband. He of corse said it was over and we are to be divorced. He has exclaimed that he wants me to get better but he cannot be with me until he can trust me again. This is one of the begining steps to learn and understand why I do the things I do and how to change/control them. I look forward to making the progress and proving to him that I can still keep my promise and vow to be the person I want to be. Hopefully the end result being him taking me back and being able to trust me again. I love him with all my heart and soul and I believe he feel the same.