The beautiful white box...

My husband went to get Austin's ashes today. I was blessed that my baby fought for 2 days to say goodbye to mommy. The contents were his remains, professional photos, the angel outfit he was dressed in, and molds of his hands and feet, and 6 books about grieving and healing. The only reason I know this is because my husband told me. First, I am beyone belief that a hospital takes the time to do this for parents. I was very thankful. I had no idea to the extend of how I would take having my child't remains. I can't look in the box. Everytime I go to open I freak complete out. I have been an evil person to everyone around me. I refuse to let anyone talk to me cus I don't want to hear what they have to say or their opinions. My heart is completely broken because it feels like now its really complete...he is gone..their is proof. I have his social security card, birth, and death certificate. How does your life change within a week...I am beyond sad and seemed to lash out on everyone...Please pray for your DS sister..