The Bad News-June 19th,2008

I do not know wheter to laugh or cry but I will be direct and to the point.Brad is going to jail and he will be there at least 25 days.I have got to take care of the house,the cats and all of the bills.Noone will know that he is in there and he does not want me to even tell Miriam.Miriam just lives up the street ,so she lives close by.And she will come over when I need her,so I told her.Things are different now in seattle and Brad has to pay to go into this house arrest.He has to pay King County 55.00 a day and I think that this is silly.Brad has told me that he will never drink again and I hope that he means it this time.This has been a roller coaster to me and I just cannot take it anymore.I have got the energy bill down to 197.00! And I will pay them off soon and he will never know.As for me..I found out who my real friends are.You do not really have friends in seattle and this is the truth.I do have people that I talk to..but noone that I can tell my problems to.All I cay say is this..I wish for one day I was Bill Gates and for one day get the respect and help that is being denied me.And the torture of not speaking to Frank it just killing me.And like one of my favorite songs Honey-Bobby Goldsboro sang in 1968 this line-All I have is memories of Honey and I weep at night and call her name.This is all I have now.All I have are memories.All I have are pictures of Frank,dad and the dog.That is all I have now.I cannot bear to look at them.It has been to painful.But remember this..I have got this;I have got the right to feel bad.It is my right and if you do not like it,please leave me alone.This loss is just too much.I have got a question;What will I do now? Any ansers!