The Bachelor Pad
Tensions at the farm escalated pretty rapidly this morning. When I am travelling with children, I like leaving early enough that the anticipation anxiety doesn't have time to escalate. The Viewing isn't until this evening, so no early start was needed for the 3 hour drive. By mid-morning, the sib bickers, etc., were becoming hard to manage, so Hubs and I decided to get our move on. Life willing, the tensions would be easier to vent on this end. Ha. . . What I have been so quaintly calling, "The Urban Homestead" is now rather scuzzy, even for a bachelor pad. It is as kid safe as a construction site. Based on family history and the residence of 4 bachelor style housekeepers, I even that would be the case when I left the farm. , buttttttaaaaaa. . .
It hit me like a ton of bricks all the same. . .
I sit now in the midst of the parental hoard piles with the door shut tight to ward off the other resident bachelors while Hubs delivers the children to the other grandparent house. I don't want the fucked up, shit smeared job of cleaning out yet another collection of their hoard piles, but this isn't the way I wanted to get out of the job. Well. . . Guess I'm saddled with another posthumous round. At least. . . The bachelors on the other side of that door are not above leaving their hoard piles for me to clean up, either, complete with nasty names to call me when I'm not smiling pretty and asking politely for more Shit Pie.
NFF! ! !
I don't know if I can handle the viewing tonight. My social anxiety is off the charts.
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In'''my own stupid silly mind''' not 'correct behavior....says '''Take Care Of You'''
Plain And Simple.....what can you give or do for yourself to keep one foot planted on the floor.
The hoarding stock piles have been in place for ??? long....can they continue to remain???
You've written before about what I consider Amazing Cleaning as a stress reducer....an option?
Continued Prayers for Your's and All's Highest Good (((Hugs)))
Arfie, I would look at this as a sorting of things to take that have value of whatever kind, and leave the rest, just leave it. It is not a task that can be done in an afternoon. Burn off the energy you need to burn, and then simply stop. Leave the rest for another time. Your choice to attend the viewing or not, and for how long to stay if you go. No wrong choices here. Prayers continuing.
Wrapping you in hugs and prayers~