The aftermath
I am off today, I have had a heck of a week. I literally slept to 11 which i never do! i think my body and spirit needed rest. i have just laid here, no tv, no facebook, just quiet peace which I needed. I have been so sad. However I got p enough strength to try and enjoy my weekend. The beast of infertility knocks me off my feet and makes me a mad women sometimes especially when you have been going through it for as long as I have. it sometimes have seemed to get worst not better with ivf 4 failing and the donor egg diagnosis. Right now I am in debt so bad that I am little pissed to pay my re office anything. It's almost here thanks for nothing! Lol! However they have been pretty helpful and I know they wanted this for me. So where do I go now? Well, we are going to foster care classes this Thursday. I hope to apply for a grant for donor cycle in October. That's it for now. I just can't fathom paying anything else right now. I am taking September off to chill and that's easier said than done.i am going to commit to asking god what it is that I am to do. I am stop hoping for my miracle. My prayer is that I can look at this while holding my baby and say so glad it's over.
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hugs hun IF sucks the life out of us sometimes I have this coming weds off and I could only hope to sleep till 11 ;) I hope that things go well in the foster classes and yo get the grant for donor...
You have been put through the wringer emotionally, physically and financially. Your body obviously needed the rest this weekend. I know your heart and head are still hurting and spinning but I think its a positive step that you\'re going to the foster classes. And the grant is a great idea! I believe that as long as we\'re still trying and moving forward, our babies will find us. xoxo
It can be do hard to move forward but I think time off to get your head clear will yelp.
I hope you get the grant and that your body will have it\'s energy back soon
Thinking of you. You\'re so sweet and supportive to all of us. I\'m sorry you\'re so down. Youve been through so much. I will pray for you miracle. Xoxo
*HUG!! Good for you for taking a break browngurl30. I know we sometime don\'t want to lose momentum in the process but the rest is good for us mentally, physically, and everything in between. Keep your chin up friend.
Good for you for listening to your mind and body and giving yourself the rest that you need. We are constantly on the go and busy busy, we forget how important it can be to take a rest and get recharged. I\'m sure the month off will be a challenge but I do hope and pray you find some peace and that your miracle is right around the corner.
((HUGS))
I am glad to hear you are taking steps to move forward and going to the foster class, but I am sure it will still take some time to get past this low point. You have just been through so much. Hugs to you!
That\'s great that you got some time to reflect and away from technology, think we all need that more often than not. I understand the frustration with stupid IF...I hope you get your miracle!