The Abyss

I wrote this poem a really long time ago and wanted to share it with all of u
1/13/03
Delving deeper into my solemn solitude
My thoughts are nonsenical it seems
Almost as if its some horrific dream

Uncontrollable, unpredictable, i cant find its source
It waxes and wanes on an uncharted course
As if a miniscule speck lost amidst
Upon the endless waves of the sea i drift
A cavernous, awesome sense of despair
The light of the tinnel isnt there

Comvinced that i cant carry on with my day
Instead i sleep or weep it away
The energy is sucked out of me into the abyss, it grows stronger
Meanwhile, i can hardly breathe, this challenge I cant conquer
Why cant i just will it away and be optimistic me of yesterday
The chemicals just wont listen i guess
Instead, im left as an emotional mess

I confide in my solace, to work throught this together
But this storm is much too strong for even both of us to weather
I feel paralyzed by this potent foe
Never knowing when it will come or go

In an attempt to rid myself of the darkness inside
Im left with scars - some of which i cant hide
Its only a desperate attempt at this -
To rid myself of the abyss