The End
The end is getting near. One more unemployment check and it's over. What will I do? How will I live? I'm physically unable to work. My hand gets worse by the day! Pain pills give some relief to my knee, but my legs are weak. From what I've heard it takes a year to get disability. How can I live that long? I've applied for assistance but haven't heard from them since the said they're looking into it. I've cut my food expenses to bare minimum and quit smoking for the most part. I've cut utilities as much as I can, keeping the heat so low that I have to wear thermal underwear in the house during this cold spell. I live in darkness for the most part to keep the electricity bill down. I have a voice that I can use, but nobody wants it. I have a gift for writing, but can't use it. What can I do? OH GOD HELP ME! I can't live like this any longer!
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OMG Mike..you are so right to name this a sad story..my heart is breaking .I understand it too...I am in a mess as you know too.. a bit different, just a bit, but not by much.
I feel so helpless to help you but wish with all I am I could. I just don\'t know what is available to help out there..I don\'t even know how to help myself anymore.
Is there even any such thing as \"welfare\" any more? I don\'t even know. Do you call social services and tell them your fix and maybe they help set people up so they can survive? I wish I knew.Where do people go in these times..I pray one of your other friends here knows more than I do and is of more help than me. So you\'ve applied to fuel assistance, gone to food pantries,seen about getting food stamps, applied for utility discounts to electric and gas companies?But haven\'t heard anything? Have you called again to explain the dire circumstances and told them you need help \"now\"..it can\'t wait?You asked for an extention on unemployment?Explaining why and asking if they can\'t can they refer you to some other aid that can help?Called social security and asked if anything can be done to help ? Explain to everyone and anyone willing to listen, that you would apply for disability because surely you are elligible but cannot afford to go to doctors to get the needed data, what can you do, can someone help?Explain that your need is TODAY, not in a year?I just don\'t know...someone please help my friend Mike!!I would have you come here ,sleep on my couch if I could ,if I knew I would have a home and any income tomorrow,right now, they want to take my home from me, and I haven\'t had any income myself for weeks.I know you do not want to be a burden, but you have 2 sisters Mike..this is one time you may HAVE to go and ask for help..live with them if necessary until the social security income is available..I know..I know...but I am grabbing at straws..something has to happen.
You don\'t know me, but I hope you have enough faith left to know that things can change in a heartbeat. Your posting has touched me and I just hope that you have enough faith and courage to face each day as it comes, rather than living as though you cannot continue. I have been in a place where all I could think of each day was how could I end this life to end this pain. Pain will diminish and circumstances in life are always in a state of flux.
You\'ve listed your concerns and predicament now it is time to let go and let God deal with them; most of what you are facing is out of your control. Whether Disability takes a year or two you should still pursue that avenue. Find a law firm that specializes in DIsability cases, as I did a few years ago, and let them do what needs to be done.
Hope is the last thing that dies so please take some time and energy to nourish your sense of hope.
From a stranger
who cares,
Fred.
im so sorry this is happening to you........ i care.
I do have a small, and I do mean SMALL pension each month and some food stamps each month but I can still relate to what you are going through, I went through the same thing and wound up staying here and there until I could get Disability started, It took 3 yrs and then only with the right lawyers. And even with my Disability and food stamps I still live much as you are living, not enough money to live decently and I am 68 yrs old and have no one at all to help me either. Prayer gets me through a lot that I couldnt get through alone. As long as I am breathing I find a flicker of hope in me. I am praying you do not give up, that you will struggle onward.
yesterdayschild2