the 4th of july

today was my son's 6th bithday, it's a hard day for me. we went to the fireworks last night it was like being in a war zone. before my ex husband and I spilt his birthday was a big deal it was a two day celebration. but now it's very lonely, when we went to the fireworks it was just the three of us and the noise from the fireworks was hard to take. I lived with a man who would out of the blue just start hitting the wall or windows or screaming out the windows so loud sudden noises sometimes upset me. I am trying not to be melodrama about this but I felt shaken. my ex doesnt even spend the kids a card for their bithday they never say anything about this but what an ass. how can someone act this way I dont understand. I know that they are better off without him but sometimes I just get so mad at him.