That wagon threw me off

Umemployed. You would think that would be an excellent time for me to work really hard on the whole losing weight and working out thing. I have fallen into a pattern of when I am home alone, i don't do shit. Of course I am not home alone often, and the times I am referring to are when I had my knee surgery... Of course I didn't do shit when I had my knee surgery. Agh. Even though I feel rather chipper, I'm kind of blue. I feel... icky. That's reallly how I could describe it. I'm thinking about instant gratification and how badly I want to be fit NOW, I want to be an MA NOW, I want to be in WV NOW.... Everything worth having is worth working for. Working for the RIGHT way, and unfortunately, the right way is the long and slow way. Boo.. Later, no point in writing now... ARGH