That Time of the Effing Year....
So... Mainly Valentines day can be singles awareness.. but I feel for most of us that goes for Christmas too.. and it's getting close... so far.. my year has went has follows..
Broke up with my ex of 4 months cried when I Realized our 11 month was this month let's not mention the long backstory...
Talked to someone for 3 months of my life only to have her stop talking to me for no apparent reason....
Had a little chit chat with someone who had a crazy personality
Someone I had a crush on for like 5 years told me she broke up with her ex.. only to find out later they moved in together and even though they don't have the "title" it's been working better (FML)
Then.. Someone I care about dearly is single and well I don't even know where to go from there....
All and all I have been in group counseling with 11 other young GLBT students who have been trying to figure themselves out... honestly there's just a step in my life that is missing.... and it's getting to be unbearable.
When Christmas rolls around I feel at my worst... My parents will be working this year again... and I who... does not have a job for christmas break this time around will be trying to figure out how to avoid all this pain..... Some midnight runs in the chilling cold are probably in store... but still hopefully I can keep it at bay long enough that no one realizes I fell off the face of the earth .... then come back and everything be okay....
Broke up with my ex of 4 months cried when I Realized our 11 month was this month let's not mention the long backstory...
Talked to someone for 3 months of my life only to have her stop talking to me for no apparent reason....
Had a little chit chat with someone who had a crazy personality
Someone I had a crush on for like 5 years told me she broke up with her ex.. only to find out later they moved in together and even though they don't have the "title" it's been working better (FML)
Then.. Someone I care about dearly is single and well I don't even know where to go from there....
All and all I have been in group counseling with 11 other young GLBT students who have been trying to figure themselves out... honestly there's just a step in my life that is missing.... and it's getting to be unbearable.
When Christmas rolls around I feel at my worst... My parents will be working this year again... and I who... does not have a job for christmas break this time around will be trying to figure out how to avoid all this pain..... Some midnight runs in the chilling cold are probably in store... but still hopefully I can keep it at bay long enough that no one realizes I fell off the face of the earth .... then come back and everything be okay....
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