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Here is a upsetting update:
 
On 8-8-12, (18 weeks) I woke up with a lot of pressure in my tummy (me thinking its gas). Went throughout my day uncomfortable. later on that night about 7pm the "gas pains" got bad. It kind of felt like the gas pains in my 1st trimester. So At at 10pm that night I went to sleep, woke up around midnight cause it felt like I had to do a bowel movement. Sorry TMI, went to push, then all of a sudden, I felt like something was coming from my vagina. I stuck my two fingers up there to feel like it was, and I felt a flesh-like them right there. 
So I hop up and tell the hubby, that we need to go to the hospital cause something is wrong. We get to the ER and I tell them that Im 18weeks pregnant, i was in pain, and I felt something come down. Its about 1am.. and They call up to the L&D and they say that cant take me up there because Im not "20weeks". So they had to help me in the ER. WTH! ... so they give me a wheelchair, then a gush of blood comes down while I was sitting. My hubby yells at them that Im bleeding. They make him fill out forms and my hubby writes on the form "18week and having contractions" (he knew something was wrong) .. 
So they finally take me back at  like 1:30am.. I in so much pain.. they say they will want a urine sample, soon as the nurse take me into their bathroom and blood gushes out everywhere.. I break down cause I know this is bad. So she says forget the urine sample. SO They take me into my room and Im in pain there for 6hrs! .. They only draw my blood, listen the the heartbeats of the babies (which were great), they also take me to get an ultrasound and the ultrasound says that everything is ok. Cervix is closed babies are there doing great!  (so they thought). So the ER doctor tells me Im fine and he will make a special call just to have me observed for a few hours in L&D. So I ask "what was that I felt in my vaginal area" he says i dont know. (NO ONE CHECKED inside there to see) .. Im still in pain. 
I finally go upstairs to the L&D about 6:45am - 7:30am, and i get in my room, and the first then the nurse does is check my cervix. she doesnt say a word and leave out. Another nurse comes in to check my cervix. she looks at me and says what happen. I tell here what i told the ER , that something was in my vaginal area. She says "You wanna know what in your vaginal area, it is your babies, your cervix is completely open, you are completely dilated, you are about to have them babies. They are only 18weeks so they will NOT survive and there nothing we can do to help them. "  My heart sunk. I had to get ready to deliver my HEALTHY BABIES.  My babies were perfectly HEALTHY, my body was just open for no reason!  I call my mom and she leaves work and comes up there, my sisters did the same also. 
They prep me for delivery, give me an epidural to stop all the pain I was in. Then hours late, I have to throw up, the nurse took to long to get there so my sister grabs the bucket and all at once, i throw up, water break, and (Zavier Ronale Brown) Baby A pops out all at 11:55am I didnt feel a thing. He was born alive kicking, moving, breathing etc.  just perfect, just too small. Then at 12:08pm (Zevion Riley Brown) Baby B, comes out too, same thing, alive kicking, moving , breathing etc. just perfect just too small. 
Zavier Ronale was born 8-9-12 7oz 8inches long at 11:55am , and stayed alive until like 9:30pm
Zevion Riley was born 8-9-12 6oz 7.5inches long at 12:08am, and stayed alive until like 4:00pm. 
I got a chance to spend their whole life with them. they touched my fingers, i kissed them, i hugged them. 
My Dr. never checked my cervix to make sure it wasn't thinning out. No Dr. in the ER checked to see what was in my vaginal area. L&D could help my babies because they were only 18weeks and not 24weeks. So They just had to die in my arms. 
Im so angry, so hurt inside, so empty.  I signed birth certificate and death certificates of the same day! I just wanna die.  I love them soo much!!! I cant take this anymore.