Thank You EmpoweredOKC !!!

I got my step Mom to lie to my Dad and order RAR about two weeks ago and I got it on the 6th or 7th. She told him it was for a coworker because I live with my Aunt who stalks the mailbox, and I am scared of internet money transfers. My Aunt and my Dad are the only two people I have not told. They are not the supportive type (proven more than once). I do not want them to keep me down. Anyway I have tried to read it several times there is a lot going on. I know I will do well, and learn a lot about me from the few sections I have read (or feel like I wrote). Thank You. I am writing this in tears and it feels good. Your site was the first place that I ever saw that was positive. From there I found DS. I do not even know or remember how I got there. I was really looking up (drops head) hardcore porn about rape. Now I look back my subconscious was looking it up (the porn) with out me, trying to trigger my conscious. So many little bits of what I can only describe as rain from Hell hit me from September through October. The mind is truly a marvelous thing. It took everything and processed it and shredded it. Mixed it with spit and then put it in a giant straw and hit me in my face. How truly humbling. I am human. I did have a false sense of security about me. I am now ready to move on. I am now ready to take the false sense of security and make it real. Again thank you. I wrote this as a journal entry for many reasons. I can’t seem to make post very well. I still lock up when talking to others and asking for help. I try to over analyze my questions before I ask them. They always come out backwards. When I write here it is a lot easier. I hope you see this, somehow. Any way thank you with tears again.