Thank you angel friends for your support and well wishes :)

Hi angel friends :) 

Thank you for your comforting, and uplifting comments, support, guidance, and encouragement :) it means the world to me :) it's a cool,  peaceful, relaxing day at home :) i'm so glad, and thankful i did some writing, sharing my heart feelings. it helps so much, to write, and everyone's loving care, and support is a great blessing i appreciate with all of the love of my heart :) it's a peaceful day, resting up :) i'm feeling better than last night, and this morning. being good to myself, keeping healthy, strong, and focused on good health. it's very healthy to my heart, and mind, having a relaxation day today, allowing myself too. i know it'll continue to help me, to pace myself in the days ahead, and will have so much more to look forward too, with better days, and coping best i can, with everything. keeping balanced, is a good thing :) it's something i want to achieve for the upcoming days. it was refreshing doing some writing earlier, and taking time to do that, was theraputic for me :) 

i always hope for the very best, for everyone, and for all of us to have good health, comfort, peacefulness. i've been emotionally breathing more today, and i think in the upcoming days, getting back on track with things, daily routines, and with the weekend coming up, it'll add to the nice rest, and relaxation that's rejuvenating my energy and spirit :) i want to keep strong, and firm, with everything i wrote about earlier. keeping stress and anxiety down, making sure i share with everyone about my comfortable boundaries, i think all will be ok :) 

i made some calls today with friends,i also spent time here on DS, and talked with my mom and Holly too :) an overall, quiet,peaceful day :) i want to put together a fun baking friday adventure tomorrow, which will be good :) i want to continue to get good night's of sleep, which is really good for my energy :) i have told my niece Alyssa in the recent times, that i don't want to pay anyone's bills, and that i would appreciate not being asked to loan money, for bills that aren't mine, and she did go back on my wishes, and asked again, and again. my mom said, "text me if she texts you", and i said, ok :) i want to be on good terms, with everyone. i'm always use too being a very helpful person, but i don't want my niece Alyssa taking advantage of me anymore. i was always for helping from time to time ,but it became an every week thing, and it upset my mom, dad, and Holly very much, that she was taking advantage of me. i've never been someone to say no, but i know it's best to be firm in this situation. i just hope Alyssa can be more financially responsible. i'm a saver, the  complete opposite of her. i'm a save first, spend second, type of person, and Alyssa's always been a spend spend spend time of person. i hope she can work on that, and improve. i don't spend a lot of money on myself, i put away most of my earnings. the most  expensive thing i bought for myself last year, was a $35 halloween cards set, which i really wanted, and i know it cost a lot, $35 is a lot of money, i just think of the times Alyssa  borrowed $400 to $640 from me, for her car bill, rent-a-center bill, it's not right i just don't want the stress, anxiety, and getting worked up, it's not fair, i don't want any part of being connected with her, financially, at all. i just want peace, and to feel free from the worry, of her asking me on a weekly basis. so many people, family, Holly, friends,care very deeply about me, and they don't want me to be stressed. 3 weeks ago, Alyssa caused me much stress, and right before one of our baking friday adventures, i had to take a break and go into the living room, because i had experienced chest pains, and heart palpitations. i stood in front of the air, and also had some water, it helped. i don't want to have that scary feeling again, and i told Alyssa, "no more borrowing", and she just doesn't get the point. i'm hoping she finally will.

it's been a whirlwind of emotions, the past couple months, and so much going on. i'm keeping as strong as i can. family, Holly, friends, you all give me strength and hope that helps me keep balanced through my days. :)i love to keep strong for everyone, who needs me, and i feel bad when i get so flabbergasted with emotions, anxiety, and stress, where i have to literally shut down my racing thoughts, to allow myself to emotionally breathe more. when i'm not anxious, stressed, and feeling relaxed,  it's when i can be my best, not just for myself, but for family, Holly, and friends :) i'll always be here, best i can :) i want to get a good night's sleep tonight, and i think i'll be ready to roll, for a full baking friday tomorrow :) from the decorating, preparations, to the baking, and writing/sharing in my journal with lots of pictures :) 

Thank you all again, our dear angel friends :) i'm with you! <3 we got this! :) feeling emotionally stronger, and hopeful :) we put some sports radio on today, and i also mailed out 2 more envelopes here from home :) it feels good mailing out the envelopes :) i want to do some more writings, in the days ahead :) Holly and i are each enjoying some iced coffee, and gonna watch some youtube/dvds tonight :) it'll be nice hanging out :) i put goodies outside, for our nature friends this morning :) it's been sunny off and on today :) i feel hopeful for the days ahead, to go well, and smoothly :) thank you all again, our dear angel friends, for reading, writing, all of your comforting support, and well wishes :) i look forward to sharing our baking friday adventure with everyone tomorrow, and a nice relaxation weekend :) 

-never lose hope :) 

To Wildthing, Peaceful Gentle Moments of the day :) Wildthing, it's a peaceful, cool day at home :) We're looking forward to a fun baking friday adventure tomorrow, and continued focused on good health, and looking forward to enjoying more gardening when the weather warms up :) Thinking of you, our dear friend :) 

my mom says hi :) she says, "i hope everyone is health, and having a nice day" :) awww :) my mom and Holly both have been talking with me today :) i'm feeling surrounded by love, care, and support :) i'm very thankful :) We love you all bunches and bunches, our sweet dear wonderful guardian angel friends :) we hope everyone is doing well, healthy, and having a good day :) We'll always be here  for you all :) 

Sweet flowers of spring time :) i'd love to re-share some nature pictures :) we have some cold weather coming, but we're still thinking of blossoming spring :)