Thank you all so much!!!!

I wanted to tell you all THANKS!  I was in the darkest place yet last night.  I did make a good choice in taking double my sleeping medication so I would sleep and not hurt myself.  So far today I feel ok.  I get so over whelmed with things.  I feel like the last 5 years have been hell and things just keep getting worse.  When I get down I tend to want to run away, thats the first sign!  I cried and cired.  I went into every single yahoo depression chat room only to basically have people make it worse.  I thought it was for support, I was wrong.  I did get this web site from a lady in one of those rooms and I am very very greatful!  I feel very alone most of the time.  I feel the bad choices I have made is the reson I am so far off my path.  My fear of being alone sets me up for not so good things! I do have a myspace page if anyone is intersted.  It is myspace.com/lbunnies32 Again, TY to all who hugged me and messaged me.  I will be coming here often.