thank you all for your awesome support, today is DAY 6!!

Day 6, I feel like my head and body are clearer than ever and my emotions are calming down. Day 4 was the hardest. Im starting to walk more and get my body and mind back. my brain knows this is right but its just sooooooo hard! I will keep praying. I read a comment on here from someone the other day that has really helped. it said something like, "quitting drinking isn't the end of the world". He said he has found a lot more to do sober and has had a lot more good times sober than he ever had drunk. Im sure that i'll also find really happy fun times sober but I think its going to take a while. definitely not fun during this first few days.
my biggest weakness is when the nights comes, around 5pm, that's when I always poured a glass of wine, followed by more wine, then 3 beers then a few vodka drinks to assure I would fall right to sleep. im so naturally high strung and work so much during the day and run around like crazy, that I needed something to calm me down and make me unwind each night. so after 4-6 years of this, I was needing more and more to make me feel calm and to feel the effect to make me sleep (or pass out) because sleep has always been so hard for me. just need to change my patterns and what I do between 5-7. maybe i'll focus all of this anxiety on working out and get really skinny and buff:)