Thank you all for you words of love and help.
It is nice to have some one to talk to who know what I am talking about. Being over weight have never been some time a person would choose to be. I grew up with an over weigh father. Who died at 50 years old because of his weight. Two year ago my brother over dosed on pain meds. At the time he weight about 600 pounds and could bearly walk from the pain of it. So i do not if he killed himself or it was just an overdose of his pain meds. I do no he wanted to die rather than be fat and not able to move. I do not know how someone want to be thin can get so big. So I have been seeing couselor for my weight. And i also have been a member of OA. It has helped some but not as much as i would like. I doctor put me on Wellbutin about a year ago. But it has not help me lose weight. It help a little with the depression. I think my doctor has already given up hope that I will ever lose weight.
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Gail, please hang in there, everytime we want to eat let\'s write in our journal, I had my toast for breakfast and I want more, I almost feel like I\'m lossing out on something when I am not eating. Crazy huh? I want to eat right now but I am writing to you instead I don\'t know what will happen when I get off computer but I do know for right now in this moment in time I am not eating and that\'s thanks to you for being someone I feel can understand FULLY what I am going through. When you want to eat just to be eating, then write me. I guess for every minute we are writing eachother that is one minute we won\'t be eating. I am not looking to get swim suit thin because that will just never happen, I would love to get down to about 250lbs, that sounds crazy but it would be better that 315lbs. Ok, sorry to keep rambling but I have all these words in my head and sometimes have trouble getting them out LOL. Let\'s make a deal with eachother today. I will not get one pound heavier than I am right now, that\'s a start. A lot easier said than done I know but I am not getting any younger and want to live the rest of my life healthier. So maybe if we don\'t get any heavier and maybe week by week we try to drop a pound or more if possible at least we won\'t get any bigger, please let me know if this sounds stupid or would you like to try and if we loose a pound we won\'t gain that one back and just take it one pound at time. Ok done rambling. I enjoy hearing from you. Good luck today girl.
Cathy
Sounds great to me . I need as much help as i can get. I am tired of going it alone. This website is the best one I have been to and itis free to boot. Sometime God does answer prayers.
Sending my love and a great big Hug from Doris Gail in Texas.