Thank you all for you words of love and help.

  It is nice to have some one to talk to who know what I am talking about.   Being over weight have never been some time a person would choose to be.   I grew up with an over weigh father.   Who died at 50 years old because of his weight.  Two year ago my brother over dosed on pain meds.   At the time he weight about 600 pounds and could bearly walk from the pain of it.  So i do not if he killed himself or it was just an overdose of his pain meds.   I do no he wanted to die rather than be fat and not able to move.   I do not know how someone want to be thin can get so big.   So I have been seeing couselor for my weight.  And i also have been a member of OA.  It has helped some but not as much as i would like.   I doctor put me on Wellbutin about a year ago.   But it has not help me lose weight.   It help a little with the depression.  I think my doctor has already given up hope that I will ever lose weight.