Terrible Valentines day!

 Let's see where to start and maybe by writing this down somewhere here I will have learned something. The day before Valentines was beautiful here in Michigan so my husband and I took a drive downtown and went to eat at the casino.I guess being out takes my mind off of the kidney surgery that I will be going through next month. Well I  brought my money which I have saved since Christmas and spend it all.  Then my husband's cell phone fell in the toilet there. To replace that phone would cost six hundred dollars. I know he is not saying much because he knows I am very depressed right now. Spent all of Valentines Day in bed and didn't even eat. The thought of this surgery is making me do such destructive things. I don't know how I am going to walk in that hospital door this time. The lastime the surgery was so bad I told myself I would rather die then go through this again but the doctor told me for sure I would end up with kidney failure.This was the worse Valentines Day for me ever. Now I just want this depression to go away!

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Robert1001
Robert1001

I truly am sorry to hear that you are down at this time. Hopefully today is going much better for you. Take care and keep smiling.
Ladybug7
Ladybug7

I\'m sorry you had such a bad day yesterday. It makes sense that you would be stressed about having surgery again. It is a blessing that you have the opportunity to avoid kidney failure, but I know that\'s little consolation when you\'re facing such a difficult procedure. I hope you are able to stay strong and keep trying to fight the depression. You\'re in my thoughts. Hugs, Judy