Terrible dreams

Im not sure what to do although I know ive got to live day to day.  I woke up at 330am this morning after having a bad dream about the narcessist ex spouse I was with.  In the dream after using me for what he needed he started laughing in my face.  I woke up with chest pains and breathing heavily.  I feel Im worse after almost a year 1/2 leaving him.

I left with nothing but 2 suitcases and since then have been trying to get my life back..what does a woman do at 47?  I have a job but struggling to get out on my own.  I got nothing in the divorce. He apparently sold everything and inflated his debt sheet.

I want to take the leap and get a place of my own but im so unsure of everything right now.