tempting...
Sometimes it's so tempting.
I have a friend who is friend with his new girlfriend. Everybody knows this situation. Sometimes, his gf post something on my friend's FB. I can see that his gf is often in good mood, which means their relationship is still good. I don't feel ok with this. No, I'm not a biatch.
My ex was a bad guy for women, emotional abuse, sex lover, cheater, selfish, heartless... until I left him for the 1st time. He wanted to change, wanted to become a good man, faithful, loyal... He did his effort. But he was still very selfish. Then I left him again. He wanted me back, but I refused, so he came to her, the girl that he had cheated on me with.
He still tried to keep me as a friend in his life. He said: "Je tiens beaucoup a toi. Je tiens enormement a toi. Tu comptes beaucoup pour moi. Ca m'embette si tu ne fais plus une part de ma vie..." (I care about you so much. I care about you enormously. You're precious to me. I'll feel bad if you're not a part of my life anymore...). But I told him to forget me, forget my name, forget my existence, forget that we ever met.
He was quiet for 2 months. Then he tried to get me back again. I refused again. Now, it seems that he and his gf are quite fine together. It seems that my ex has become a real good bf. It seems that he has become a good person. He posted pictures with her on FB on Christmas day - the day that we met more than 2 years ago. She posted happy comments on my friend's FB. I stopped checking his FB since then.
2 months ago, 8 months after the breakup, I have a new boyfriend who doesn't live in the same city with me. Everybody says that my new bf is a good man. I think the same. But the thing is: I was always unlucky in relationship, so I'm kinda waiting for anything bad that could happen at any time.
I'm in an unexplanable feeling. I'm supposed to think about my new bf instead of this awkward feeling for my ex and his gf. Ridiculously, we all live in different cities...
Has my ex really become a good person?
Why was "I" the one of his 1st choice, the one he wanted back several times... but he was still seflish? and did things that he knew that hurt me?
If he loved me more than her, then why wasn't he a good person to me? Why he is that to her now?
I was only in his transitory period in becoming another person. I don't understand. If God exists, would he give me an answer for things going on in my life? Or would he just said: You'll have to figure it out yourself.
And finally? Why do I still CARE ????? I have a new boyfriend who is a real good man and got compliment credit from my friends and sister. Why do I still care about my ex ??? Why am I still wasting my time ???
I have a friend who is friend with his new girlfriend. Everybody knows this situation. Sometimes, his gf post something on my friend's FB. I can see that his gf is often in good mood, which means their relationship is still good. I don't feel ok with this. No, I'm not a biatch.
My ex was a bad guy for women, emotional abuse, sex lover, cheater, selfish, heartless... until I left him for the 1st time. He wanted to change, wanted to become a good man, faithful, loyal... He did his effort. But he was still very selfish. Then I left him again. He wanted me back, but I refused, so he came to her, the girl that he had cheated on me with.
He still tried to keep me as a friend in his life. He said: "Je tiens beaucoup a toi. Je tiens enormement a toi. Tu comptes beaucoup pour moi. Ca m'embette si tu ne fais plus une part de ma vie..." (I care about you so much. I care about you enormously. You're precious to me. I'll feel bad if you're not a part of my life anymore...). But I told him to forget me, forget my name, forget my existence, forget that we ever met.
He was quiet for 2 months. Then he tried to get me back again. I refused again. Now, it seems that he and his gf are quite fine together. It seems that my ex has become a real good bf. It seems that he has become a good person. He posted pictures with her on FB on Christmas day - the day that we met more than 2 years ago. She posted happy comments on my friend's FB. I stopped checking his FB since then.
2 months ago, 8 months after the breakup, I have a new boyfriend who doesn't live in the same city with me. Everybody says that my new bf is a good man. I think the same. But the thing is: I was always unlucky in relationship, so I'm kinda waiting for anything bad that could happen at any time.
I'm in an unexplanable feeling. I'm supposed to think about my new bf instead of this awkward feeling for my ex and his gf. Ridiculously, we all live in different cities...
Has my ex really become a good person?
Why was "I" the one of his 1st choice, the one he wanted back several times... but he was still seflish? and did things that he knew that hurt me?
If he loved me more than her, then why wasn't he a good person to me? Why he is that to her now?
I was only in his transitory period in becoming another person. I don't understand. If God exists, would he give me an answer for things going on in my life? Or would he just said: You'll have to figure it out yourself.
And finally? Why do I still CARE ????? I have a new boyfriend who is a real good man and got compliment credit from my friends and sister. Why do I still care about my ex ??? Why am I still wasting my time ???
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