TEMPTATION EXIST IT'S UP TO US TO RESIST....

Okay so I mention TLOVE. His friend. He's older than my ex but younger than I. If I'm not mistaken he is 36 or 37 now. But regardless, HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN THE VOICE OF REASON with my ex. He was the one who would always tell him THE RIGHT things to do and the WRONG things he should steer clear of. When I first met TLOVE, my ex was in jail for 3 mths. for NOT completing community service. So I had to keep in close contact with TLOVE while he was away. Then I GOT HIM OUT ON WORK RELEASE....ME..ME..ME..ME!!! WHY, cause I'm a great writer when I want to write (or so I'm told) and I wrote a letter to the judge and within 2 days they let me ex leave the jail EVERYDAY to go to work and return upon clocking out. ALL THAT WAS CAUSE OF ME!!! The major who took my letter said herself that the work release program has a waiting list and usually takes 30 days to even be reviewed for. He had only been in jail 1 day. Anyway, TLOVE and I had instant attraction. I was attracted to him, but just blew it off as nothing and kept it strictly platonic. I'm not sure when he decide he felt SOMETHING or how he dealt with it. But he has admitted to me twice that he was attracted to me as well. We have talked about 5 times via text ONLY. I spoke to him today. Although he has let his attraction be known he hasn't acted off of it, Nor I. He never says anything bad about my ex. He has encouraged me to AT LEAST talk to him and if I feel that I just can't deal with him any longer. To at least let him know, but he has said we should work things out, "BECAUSE THE BABY WILL ULTIMATELY SUFFER". I'll do everything in my power to ENSURE my little pumpkin grows up KNOWING he is LOVED BEYOND LIMITS and that he himself treats people with kindness and love. My 11 year old turned out GREAT, considering what he has been placed in the middle of. I like T-LOVE, and in the beginning of my anger towards my ex I would say terrible things like, I should bonk his friend, so he can feel the EXACT LEVEL of disrespect I felt when I found out about neighbor. And although I like TLOVE...an awful lot....I know I won't go there. It would DEVASTATE my ex far greater than I believe he disrespected me, cause I have his son. CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW HE WOULD FEEL TO FIND OUT HIS EX OF 2 YEARS, THE MOTHER OF HIS FIRST AND ONLY CHILD IS NOW DATING HIS FORMER BEST FRIEND...I'M SURE THE FRIENDSHIP WITH BE KAPUT!!! JUST GOES TO SHOW YOU..GOD HAS HIS HAND ON MY SHOULDER. CAUSE I'M THINKING OF HOW HE WOULD FEEL WHEN IT'S CLEAR HE SPENT TWO LONG YEARS OF MY PRECIOUS TIME....NOT THINKING ABOUT ME OR HIS SON FOR THAT MATTER. I STILL LIKE TLOVE A-LOT....BUT I WILL PRACTICE RESTRAINT....