Tax Day

I had to do my taxes today. Put off until the last possible instant, as I have very little income. Turns out that I had $6,900 in income last year. Pathetic. I've taken in more this year already, but it has been an enormous amount of work. I've been working 6 to 12 hours a day, almost every day, since the week after Christmas.  And at that, it doesn't cover expenses.  I'm not drownding yet, though, and I'm getting help establishing a business, so I have hopes. I don't know, though, because it sounds like they (the people helping me) are going to try to make me do some things that I have no idea how to do and probably won't be able to manage.  I'm a bit worried about that, because I have to meet with the woman at the center once a month, and last meeting she said that I have to have a party to kick off the opening of my shop, and that would mean finding people to invite, which has forever been a problem for me, and even moreso now, because I know NOBODY up here. It would also mean having people over to my house, and I don't know if I can handle that. One of the reasons I've never had alot of friends is because I am a very private person. Private to the point of not wanting visitors in my house and locking the doors as soon as possible after it's been opened.  Not every day, mind, but most days I just want to be alone. I don't usually bother me. Most other people irritate me.  The message that I am getting about the kid is that she wasn't socialized enough in younger years, and I'm sure not the person to teach her the proper way to socialize. Well, not right now I'm not - Before I got laid off from the bank I had lots of friends and knew how to get along with almost everyone. I think I've lost it. Mind, when I go out in public I'm fine. I get along with people, have conversations and everything. But I spend so much time alone that I'm worried about it. I'm very worried that I'm not going to be able to handle alot of people coming over to my house. Especially if I'm supposed to plan it and host it.  Why would they think that that was a good idea?