target..........

soooooo in my recent journal enteries i wrote about my uncle who was making me very uncomfrotable and i thought it was okay b/c he was family etc. etc.....wellll saturday i was really sick and my mom and some of my aunts and uncles were going to my grandparents' house and my grandma was gonna make potato pancakes and he was gonna be there...my uncle i mean.....i was feeling so sick that i didn't even care....well during that time when a few batches were made my mom told me to go in the dining room with my uncles and my grandpa...i stalled for a few minutes then went in.....there was a chair seperating me and my uncle.....there was me at the end, his wife/my aunt, and him......at one point his wife/my aunt went to the kitchen with the other women and it was just me, my 2 uncles and my grandpa.....and this particular uncle touched my hand and rubbed it.....the wave of uncomfortable came back and i removed my hand ad excused myself.....i went to the bathroom and just took some deep breaths to calm down......then when we were leaving he reached out to give me a hug and i said,"you don't wanna hug me....i'm sick..." and he said,"i don't care..." and then hugged me and kissed me.....why am I the target of him and his emotions????? i just wanna live a normal life!!!!!! i don't wanna worry about him giving me more affection or time....i just want this target off my back!!!!