Talking Outloud
Today I am frustrated and angry why do I have to deal with this shit. I am tired and at the end of my strength and patience and desire to fight. I just want a day when I do not fell worthless and unimportant to anyone including myself.I do not want to have to deal with the thoughts of leaving for good .I do not want to have flushs of feelings of worthlessness and cold chills of doom and death as the only answer to my illness. I am tired of spending one third of my income on treatment and medications and being broke all the time .But I move forward and I see my shrink and I take my meds and I do not hurt myself .I try everyday and everyday I win so far but now I am worried I have a list of people who would be hurt if I was not here . The list grows short and harder to justify my existance.
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Oh Allen, I have been there. Have you ever considered getting ECT treatments? When I had tried every med under the sun and was still depressed, the hospital I went to suggested them. They said they are 70 percent effective whereas meds are only 50%. They saved me, Allen. I think you might benefit from looking into it. At the very least, I think you should get yourself to the hospital, hon.
Please take care of yourself,
Debi
I am OK Debi .I have had this problem for 5yrs and have been in the hospital twice in two years. What is ECT.