Talking Hiatus
Hi have been in a talking hiatus with my dad for quite some while now. Maybe 3 weeks. I don't know why I am not talking to him. He is visiting me in a week and I don't know how I can deal with that. It is just too overwhelming. He has good intentions but he does not understand that i am depressed. He thinks it is a phase and I can snap out of it and go out and things will change. He doesn't know how depressed I am. He wants me to work so bad that this is the only thing on his mind and I cannot work right now. I just don't have the mental capacity to focus, concentrate or work. I have been trying to be as communicative with him as possible but to no avail. For him if I am not working I am not doing anything. It is very discouraging. I cannot make myself talk to him anymore. It is just too stressful. On top of that I have my mom who is visiting by me now who insists that i talk to him everytime she talks to him. For goodness sakes, if she wants to talk to him why the hell do I have to talk to him everytime. She is dialing him up and she is having the conversation why do I have to talk to him everytime. It is getting unbearable especially that their arrival time is nearing and he knows that I am not happy about it.
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