Taking it one day at a time
Well yesterday I got a call back from a cousler and I wasnt home..so I called her back so waiting to set up an appt.I need something to change...I just feel so sad and dead inside..nothing seems to make me happy anymore..I have the greatest 2 kids anyone can ask for...and all i want to do is lay on the couch and cry........
3yrs ago i lost the greatest man in my life..My daddy..he had a stroke and 2yrs last lung cancer took him away from me..we were like bestest friend.he was the one man in my life t hat never let me down..i could turn to..talk about anything....we had uniuqe relationship....i wasnt over close with my mom..but after losing my daddy.she started dating this guy...and has chosen him over family.she lives 10mintues away and has only seen us and the kids twice last year...its like she just doesnt care...just kills me inside..family was everything to my daddy...AND she acts like its nothing......why do i always get kicked in the stomach..from family to friends????? Are there real friends out there anymore
3yrs ago i lost the greatest man in my life..My daddy..he had a stroke and 2yrs last lung cancer took him away from me..we were like bestest friend.he was the one man in my life t hat never let me down..i could turn to..talk about anything....we had uniuqe relationship....i wasnt over close with my mom..but after losing my daddy.she started dating this guy...and has chosen him over family.she lives 10mintues away and has only seen us and the kids twice last year...its like she just doesnt care...just kills me inside..family was everything to my daddy...AND she acts like its nothing......why do i always get kicked in the stomach..from family to friends????? Are there real friends out there anymore
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your mother is happy. be happy for her. it must have been and probably still is so hard for her to cope with losing her husband, your father. when you hurt so badly inside, you want comfort and distraction, and for the pain to be taken away. Being in a new relationship is probably a way for her to feel better. I know I would probably want to die if I lost my man. I know it must be hard to see her with a new man, but just think about how she is probably just trying to cope with the pain and trying to be happy again, and it sounds like she is. Call her on the phone more often and take the initiative if you want to talk to her. She is probably masking the depression and is distracted for the time being.
I have tried and tried to make an effort and i get nothing
i feel like there are no true friends out there either, after i got ill most of them dissapeard. Do you have one? I have managed to hang on to one friend who sticks by my side and thats better than the 20 i had before. I guess they were not my real friends anyway. as far as family goes i thought mine was the best till i got ill. they do try but thier true colors show. they think my dression and illness is just an \"excuse\" to not change and be lazy. i\'m not trying to take away from your exspereince i\'m just saying i understand and empathize. once your depressed for a long time people treat you different. Sheer will power just isn\'t enough sometimes
I agree with you I truly dont know if there are real friends out th ere anymore..I have a few i trust very much..but its so hard to let that wall down and let them get threw it..u always wait for them to disspoint you....its sad but true
i understand i don\'t exspect much from the few friends i have so i don\'t get dissapointed. hang in there girl
U and I have that in common....its so sad really