Surrender

I've been talking about surrendering for some time now and it's been difficult because I didn't realize I couldn't surrender because I didn't trust God would handle my situation as I'd like it to be... LMAO Ain't that something? I can't do it but going to tell the Creator of All how to.... Actually I feared someone I care for was headed for destruction and somehow equated coddling and enabling for protection, I had the discussion with my friend and told them of my concerns in which they replied" just chill you worry too much, ain't nothing going to happen I've been in these streets for years", just at that moment I realized I'd wasted time to avoid handling my own personal business, I mean it was a beautiful distraction but not at all beneficial for me.. That very night I asked God to remove the worry and replace it with a plan for my Next Level..I want and deserve better and what i came to terms with is No one was going to get it for me... Thank you Creator for the enlightenment.