Surgery date

I am on my way to a healthier life. My surgery is scheduled for August 25, 2008. I am nervous and excited. I think I am more nervous for my family. My son said, :Oh mom, you won't be able to have pizza at my b-day party on the 28th."  I think it might have finally sunk in that I was really going through this.  My daughter is more concerned about the surgery not the after and my husband has been a saint with me. This has been such a long road and many emotions for us both.   I don't want to become one of those ocd people who talks all about the weightloss. I want to just be. I saw a show on Rachel Ray and a woman there had alienated herself from all of her friends because of the  cinstant update in the weightloss and clothes shopping.   I want to be supportive and listen to my friends but still remember that I need to make decsions that are for me and not because of other's desires. I have started the high protein no carb diet for now. It is difficult not to eat the carbs, but I am managing. This is minor compared to my new life.   I am proud of myself, since we moved into our new home I have managed to get into the pool everyday and swim or walk in the pool for 30 minutes.  Now I have made a place on the patio for the gazelle rider.