SUPER ANXIOUS.......... WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.... IM PREGNANT BUT I WONT BELIEVE IT UNTIL MY SCAN...

HA HA...   im crazy.    tonight i wanted to go to emergency and pretend im cramping just so they can tell me that im ok. i think im going to jinx myself.  i have to stop.  Hubby thinks im crazy..... I just want my scan NOW, not next wednesday.    BUT NOW....Im going to have one more final blood test on friday if the nurses let me, i suppose i want to know that im still pregnant.   sob sob sob... good night.... i want to sleep until next wednesday.   sob