sunny days

I havent writen in awhile. Things have been hella crazy in life. My partner in crime and I just moved to a new city. I grew up here but she didnt. She and I are trying to unpack the apt. It is a slow process since I have OCD and things have to be perfect. But I know it is stressful for her cuz she gets irrated and frusterated with me. I dont blame her..I just feel bad. That transition has been hard on us both. My depression is hitting and my ED is wanting to take over and change how I eat. I am temped to just go with the flow and let it take over. Im to the point where I dont care anymore. My Personality Disorder has been really bad, Im having suicidal thoughts and wanting to act on them but I know that I cant and I need to just try to keep my chin up. I feel stuck between a rock and hard place. I will look for a job soon. I am just trying to get stable. I feel like I am going crazy. (sigh)