Sunday eve
Hello SOTH - Just checking in - now that I'm back to work, I'm finding my time so limited... Like, Gina, I miss having the time during the day to sit and read all of your journals and respond...I often feel like the world just keeps spinning.
I am so struggling with my mind this past week....all I seem to think about is my daughter...the hospital...those last few days.....my life with her.....I am trying to think of other things but it just seems like I always come back to feeling lost without her...never to hear "mom" again....It's exhausting...I laid down this afternoon about 2 and woke up @ 6:30.....It has been a long time since I have done that...guess I needed to REST!!
Another week is beginning....I pray that my mind can catch a moment of peace this week. Jennifer, Jennifer, I miss you so so much.....your mom forever.
I am so struggling with my mind this past week....all I seem to think about is my daughter...the hospital...those last few days.....my life with her.....I am trying to think of other things but it just seems like I always come back to feeling lost without her...never to hear "mom" again....It's exhausting...I laid down this afternoon about 2 and woke up @ 6:30.....It has been a long time since I have done that...guess I needed to REST!!
Another week is beginning....I pray that my mind can catch a moment of peace this week. Jennifer, Jennifer, I miss you so so much.....your mom forever.
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Working full time is truly a blessing as it keeps us from getting into our heads all the time. Yet we need to rest, so good for your naptime. Hope you can sleep tonight. Have a good week. Hugs, Kathy
Going back to work is exhausting at the best of times. You needed the rest.
Like you, I miss Lisa\'s voice - she would answer the phone with \"Hi Mummy\".
Wishing you a peaceful week.
Love and hugs,
Marlene
Going back to work is always very stressful and takes time to adjust. I miss Jason coming in at night and saying \"hi, mom, got food?\". You will probably always think about your Jennifer and miss her presence. Sending healing and energy prayers for you and lots of love. Katrina
Grateful that you rested when your body needed it and yes, the longing and missing for your beloved Jennifer will always be with you. I think it just becomes something that each of us learns how to carry in our own time and in our way.
Easy does it as I know the energy it takes to be in a school and sometimes just to take those 1-2 minutes pauses is vital.
Know that you are loved and thought of dear Vicki and your sweet Jennifer is always remembered.
Tightest of heart (((hugs)))
XO Joanie
I so hope you feel some peace this week.
Vicki, I think for me, work is a blessing and a curse. It keeps me busy and focused on something other than my own pain yet it exhausts me. But I do need to work to support myself (my husband is disabled) and so it goes. You must have needed the rest and I think its important to listen to your body and nurture yourself as best you can. I too feel despair at times when I think of not hearing \"Hi Mom\" from Ed again, at least not in this lifetime. Maybe winks or signs but not verbally, the way I\'d want it. I am so sorry you did not have Jennifer many, may more years. Life can be so cruel.
May your week be gentle as you move towards healing.
Love and hugs, Linda
I will be sure to pray for some peace for you...love you, Lauri