Sunday 1/12/2014
So far the pain has been mild this weekend. I hope my doc appointment Tuesday yields some answers and some relief. I'm going to lift weights and sweep the floors today. My house doesn't get very dirty without pets and all the special filters for the asthma keep the dust down but I still have to clean. I just get lazy sometimes but I can't stand clutter or dirt and no one else is here to do it so I'm on my own again.
Another damp gray day today. My mood is ok as the pain is mild but still there...it's always there. Hopefully someday it won't be there.
I'm going to have to push myself to lift today. I can feel myself being lazy but around 11:30am I'll kick my arse into gear. I know I'll feel better after the fact.
I only took half a Klonopin this morning. I'm trying to stretch them out until my Jan 22nd appointment. I hope the doc gives me more but I know I can't use them forever. It figures the one thing that really helps is only temporary. I hope we can find a permanent solution.
If I can get this pain under control I can maybe start getting out more. More like forcing myself out. That's sad. I have to force myself to leave the house. Being an introvert kind of sucks. I highly doubt there are many extroverts that suffer depression. Lucky them. It's just that nothing really sounds like something I would want to do. I need to find some volunteer work once I find a way to manage the pain.
Until I can manage the pain I feel like I'm going to be stuck in neutral....
Another damp gray day today. My mood is ok as the pain is mild but still there...it's always there. Hopefully someday it won't be there.
I'm going to have to push myself to lift today. I can feel myself being lazy but around 11:30am I'll kick my arse into gear. I know I'll feel better after the fact.
I only took half a Klonopin this morning. I'm trying to stretch them out until my Jan 22nd appointment. I hope the doc gives me more but I know I can't use them forever. It figures the one thing that really helps is only temporary. I hope we can find a permanent solution.
If I can get this pain under control I can maybe start getting out more. More like forcing myself out. That's sad. I have to force myself to leave the house. Being an introvert kind of sucks. I highly doubt there are many extroverts that suffer depression. Lucky them. It's just that nothing really sounds like something I would want to do. I need to find some volunteer work once I find a way to manage the pain.
Until I can manage the pain I feel like I'm going to be stuck in neutral....
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