Sunday

Yesterday I couldn't go on the computer, because the internet wasn't working. So I just did other stuff to fill in the time till I had to go out. I don't care to much about the guy think at the moment, frankly I care more about going back to sleep. Because I feel so tired!But yeah I'll see him nonetheless today, because it is Sunday and he goes to the same meeting as me. Not that I don't like this, I do, I just wish I could lose face so then I would not care what I said to him. But I can't truly imagine myself doing something like that. And I really hate that I can't because I hate being such apathetic loser who can't even talk to people.When I think about it is so easy. It not as if I am getting dared to jump of a bridge or doing anything that may threaten my life. No, all I have to do is be myself, smile and walk up to someone and talk. And its as easy as that.Yet I would still have my reservations, in no way do I feel this task is going to be easy for me, but I do want to be able to talk more confidently by the end of the year. And I do hope he is one of the ones I will be able to talk to by then.