Summer is here
Hello SOTH - I'm on my 2nd week of summer vacation....it is hot, hot, hot here...108 YIKES!! My energy level when it's that hot is pretty much diminished....I stay in with air conditioning. I have been packing some dishes, though, to be ready to move when the time comes. My place is for sale - time will tell.
I really notice a difference with how I deal with things when I'm not working...seems like I have so much more down time and my mind and heart always goes to my Jennifer. The other day, I was driving and the thought came into my head of "is she really gone?" - I shocked myself that I was thinking that again...it's just hard to believe.
I woke up this morning @ 3:30, couldn't go back to sleep so here it is 8:15 and I'm ready to go back to bed.....don't know why I woke up, don't know why I couldn't go back to sleep - just got up, coffee.....lucky me. LOL
I follow Tosha Silver on facebook and the other day she posted this:
Your false self is always that which is passing away. Your TRUE self doesn't go up or down, it's constant - it's a rock. Once you learn to live there, what others say about you, your failures, successes - these don't send you on a roller coaster ride down or up. It's really the only way to PEACE. It's really the only way to peace. There's no other way to be peaceful except in the true self."
I think we always know what our true self is, what is feels, wants, needs....I just think due to life's circumstances, sometimes we lose our way. My goal is to stay true to myself, listening to my inner child and doing whatever I need to do to have peace.
Well, its nap time for me, otherwise today I will be struggling. Love you all. Vicki
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These human earth suits can be so cumbersome at times and I think we spend our lives trying to find ourselves, our true self that we entered this life "in" and then allowed life and others to tell us stories that were not true about who we are. It's a paradox indeed and I adore Tosha too and find comfort and wisdom in her words.
It was the summer solstice yesterday so you might have been feeling some of that energy when you awakened so early. I do that too some days so I hope you can go back to sleep and enjoy a nap.
Good luck with the sale of your place and packing up is a process indeed. Beginning in the kitchen is always where I begin as well.
Keep cool as that is SO hot!
Loving care to Jennifer's mom from Douglas and me and can't wait to meet you in August and share a (((hug))).
XO Joanie
I absolutely hate it when I cannot sleep! It seems to be more the norm these days... Ugh! I sure hope the nap does you good, I think I am going to lay down shortly. Just finished the housework and I am ready. I hope you find that rock of peace that you and all of us so desperately need. I hope this heat lets up soon. It is hot here too but not those extra 10 degrees would really sink me too. Stay cool and get some much needed rest. Sending love...
Hi Vicki, I find it amazing in a difficult way that even after all these years I can go into denial for a few seconds and say, is this truly my reality? This journey is so complex.
Good luck with the sale of your home!
I wonder if your body is a bit off in regards to sleep since you are off for the summer. I used to notice my sleeping patterns took a while to regulate once I was out of school for the summer. Just a thought.
Enjoy your nap, lol. Love to you and dearest Jennifer ♡