suicide letter
If I was to write a suicide letter, it would go something like this
Dear loved ones and those who have been in my life,
it has been almost 18 years now that I have been living and breathing, but as short as 18 years is, its much too long for me. I lost my dad who was my structure, my motivation, and of course my dad and role model. he has played a big part in things that i did or did not do. but now hes gone and i feel like a body without its bones.
I was so strong I know, I appeared that way, I psyched myself out, I really thought I was strong. Lets face it though, my body has been eating itself alive mentally and physically without me even knowing it, and now it was time that i let it shut down.
To all my family... you have been a big part of my life.. I love you all very much, and mom you are the best mom ever and you have done nothing wrong and none of this is your fault.. im the one to blame so dont blame yourself.. i seem selfish right now, i seem like all i care about is myself, but when i keep making mistakes that harm me and my family then what is the point anymore. and thanks brandon for being a protective brother even though there was times when i wish you werent so much..
my friends... without you I'd be nothing, Its hard for me to write this thinking of all of you. you all know who have been there, who havent. I could go on and name you all but if you were really my friends you will know exactly what i would say, or do if i was here.
dont give up life like me and my dad did. we werent strong enough. we tried and we covered it up, but deep inside we are withering flowers.
I know my dad wanted more than anything to see me graduate.. but why.. why should i have? maybe to do the one thing he never did, to do the one thing i knew he would have been so proud of me for?
maybe i should have but its too late now, im up in heaven with my dad.
i wish i could say im sorry to go, but if i really felt sorry i wouldnt result to such a tragic thing..
I love all of you deeply..
and at my funeral dont play no pussy music...
Dear loved ones and those who have been in my life,
it has been almost 18 years now that I have been living and breathing, but as short as 18 years is, its much too long for me. I lost my dad who was my structure, my motivation, and of course my dad and role model. he has played a big part in things that i did or did not do. but now hes gone and i feel like a body without its bones.
I was so strong I know, I appeared that way, I psyched myself out, I really thought I was strong. Lets face it though, my body has been eating itself alive mentally and physically without me even knowing it, and now it was time that i let it shut down.
To all my family... you have been a big part of my life.. I love you all very much, and mom you are the best mom ever and you have done nothing wrong and none of this is your fault.. im the one to blame so dont blame yourself.. i seem selfish right now, i seem like all i care about is myself, but when i keep making mistakes that harm me and my family then what is the point anymore. and thanks brandon for being a protective brother even though there was times when i wish you werent so much..
my friends... without you I'd be nothing, Its hard for me to write this thinking of all of you. you all know who have been there, who havent. I could go on and name you all but if you were really my friends you will know exactly what i would say, or do if i was here.
dont give up life like me and my dad did. we werent strong enough. we tried and we covered it up, but deep inside we are withering flowers.
I know my dad wanted more than anything to see me graduate.. but why.. why should i have? maybe to do the one thing he never did, to do the one thing i knew he would have been so proud of me for?
maybe i should have but its too late now, im up in heaven with my dad.
i wish i could say im sorry to go, but if i really felt sorry i wouldnt result to such a tragic thing..
I love all of you deeply..
and at my funeral dont play no pussy music...
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