Suffocating and hanging by a thread
Today sucks and its 9:30. Restless sleep again and up at 4am on a Sunday? Yuck. Thought I'd settle in to read my book for book club. Its sweet, romantic love story I have been enjoying. So has DH since it made me more frisky ;) I've been feeling surrounded by pregnant women and babies constantly again. So of course the main character goes on her honeymoon and conceives while shes there- bitch. I hate the word pumpkin right now because I would have been due next week. I was calling my baby my little pumpkin so now that word really stings. I am going pumpkin hunting with my best friend who is 18 weeks pregnant this morning. It was a little to much for me this morning and was sobbing in yhe shower. I thought I was being quiet but my DH all of a sudden behind me just holding me. That helped a little. Still a little fragile this morning but I've got to slap my happy face on!!!! :) :) :)
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So sorry. If you don\'t feel comfortable going pumpkin hunting, don\'t go. After my loss, if I felt I would get triggered by something I didn\'t put myself through it. Don\'t slap your happy face on for your friend\'s benefit. Hang in there. Wishing you peace and good thoughts for today and your upcoming plans. Hugs.
I\'m so sorry, friend. I hate when I\'m really into a book and then poof! the chick accidentally gets pregnant. I\'m glad DH was right there to comfort you. Take care of yourself today. If you feel like you need to lay low, snuggle up and relax. Thinking about you!
Wow. Preggo on a honeymoon. If only that shit happened in real life. i\'m so sorry you were having such a rough morning, and yet very glad that DH was in tune with your needs. I agree with the others. Don\'t go pumpkin hunting if its going to cause a rough time. You deserve to take some time for you, and hey, sicknesses are going around, and you just happened to come down with something last minute. Darn. Hugs and thinking of you!
So sorry you had a tough morning. I hope it passed and you were able to keep moving. Though i have to agree about not doing something thats so difficult, like pumpkin hunting. Its just seems so unfair to do yoursellf. Be kind to yoursellf right now. Sending you hugs and peace
I\'m so sorry to read this. I can feel your pain. I hope if you ended up going pumpkin picking today that it turned into a good day. I personally cannot imagine going to a pumpkin patch right now and seeing all the babies and kids. Wishing you peace and comfort and sending a billion hugs.
Sometimes it feels like the fertile world is ganging up on us, doesn\'t it? Your DH sounds like a really sweet guy. Hope your day got better!
So sorry your having a hard time. Waiting sucks and wsiting while everyone around you is pregnant or has a baby is worst.
Hope it gets better soon.
Uhhh thanks guys. It was an ok day. I was glad to come home for a good hug and veg time with DH.
Unfortunately Nellysgirl, the book is a true story & I coordinated a wedding for a friend who came home from her honeymoon and announced their pregnancy 3 months later. All of my friends- literally all of them have gotten pregnant incredibly quickly. Except one who took Clomid and got pregnant on the first cycle. I knew you guys were the onllllly ones that would understand. I really enjoy my neighbors & our book club so if asked I momentarily thought about sharing why I struggled with the book but quickly realized they will likely look at me like I have three heads so forget that!
I\'m in tears for you. I\'m so sorry you are struggling. Infertility is bad enough but miscarriage had got to be so awful. I\'m thinking of you and hoping that next Halloween will be a happy occasion for you. xo
*HUG!! I\'m sorry friend. That fragile hanging by a thread feeling is awful. What a thankful thing that you have a sweet and sensative hubby. It\'s our body that takes the physical hit but it\'s infertility overall that can really put a good marriage under fire really quickly sometimes too. It\'s wonderful you are both on the same page. I say read a different book! :0) I\'m a complete bookworm dork and I only like to read the fluffy stuff. It\'s the only reading outside of my bible that gives my brain down time. If you want a girly mindless book list msg me girl :0)
I\'m sorry this fall with all the pumpkins and things is kind of ruining it for you. Especially since this is such a beautiful season in the year. I hope you are having a better week friend.
Im a little late to this but wanted you to know that I am thinking about you. My heart hurts for you friend and the struggle are currently enduring. Its wonderful that your hubby was there to comfort you, kuddos to him for just being there and holding you. Afterall, sometims thats all we really want and need.
Praying you find some peace from the hurt and sadness you are experiencing. ((HUGS))
Thanks you guys, I appreciate it. I don\'t know why I\'ve been such a Negative Nancy lately. We are supposed to do our FET at the end of November, likely right at/around Thanksgiving. My beta would fall on my bday if it goes as scheduled. That would put us at 3 yrs trying...crazy. I don\'t know why I am so indifferent right now, can\'t seem to get over my funk. Well.got to get back to work and hearing more chit chat about my 28 week pregnant coworker- names, things to buy, how cute her husband is feeling for the baby- gag gag gag! ;)
I\'m so sorry that you are having such a bad day. There\'s nothing I could say to make you feel any better but I can say that we are all in this together. DS has really lifted my spirits today when I needed it most and I hope it does the same for you. XOXO