sudden change of heart?
OK, so i called the parents, told him off and went on my way. this week i get a call from him saying he wants to talk. out of curiosity i go. NOW he wants to be a part of the baby, his parents bought me baby girl clothes and sockies.... and he talks about saving up money for her. NOW he wants to know her name. he showed me where he lived. and said he told his parents the truth. and you know what everything in me says? lies lies lies. i go into protective mode. i supose i should be happy for the effort, but its like, ive gone through all this emotional upheaval, leaps and bounds of self searching... and making myself okay. i was ready to be without him in her or my life. so now what? it kinda shook me up a bit. i mean, i GAVE him PLENTY of chances to be involved, even to forgive him and start over. but im past all that. im ready to be on my own. and now he comes around. it bothers me. i told him so. i told him i dont trust a word of it, that only the future will tell. i mean. im actually starting to feel good about myself. i enjoy my own company. im happy about my baby. im going to contiue to be that way, just the whole thing kinda shook me up. well, its new years eve, part of me wants to go out, kinda got cabin fever and stuff, but i dont want to be around the drunks. i hope everyone has a great day...
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