sucker

Sometimes I think SUCKER is written across my forehead.  I was invited to a gathering yesterday to meet some of the Suicide Prevention Education Alliance team at one of the director's homes - way on the other side of the earth.  I went.  At this gathering they went around the room introducing themselves - telling everyone what their role is for the Walk fundraiser in the fall.  When it came to me I said I was the parent liaison for my son's school. The director piped in adding that I was the distrubution person for the west side of town.  I didn't say anything because I didn't want to embarrass her.  Even after the gathering I didn't say anything.  I recall telling her I couldn't do it.  I think what I'm doing now is enough.  I really don't have a partner and raised all of the $3000.00+ minus $8 that the school contributed.  I put a lot of work into it.  They have a lot of confidence in me and that's great but..........I told them that I don't know if i can do because of my son.  They said anything I can do is more than they have now.  I will have to think about it.  It seems overwhelming to me right now.  About 35 schools would be coming to a gathering I set up (I'd have to get volunteers to help me) to pick up their supplies..  They suggested a pizza place with a room...........  Heard from the detective.  We are going to meet so that he can see the packet I put together for "new" parents who are learning that their child has a drug or alcohol problem.  There is a section in the packet "When Your Teen Gets In Trouble With The Law".  I need his input.  He is thrilled about this idea.  He's had numerous parents ask him what to do, and where to go.......I know I was in the same position.  I figured it out but nothing was mapped out for me..........everything came in pieces.....    Next week I really have to focus on my classes. They took a back seat but now I HAVE to work on that project..........since I do get paid to do this...