successfully moved out

It is raining in the middle of this night and I am feeling like writing in my DS journal.
It's been so so long, dude!!
Well, I have successfully moved out to a new rented studio and I am doing fairly well. Just missing good times with my mom but over here so many things to do and learn if one knows how to seize the opportunity. On top of that, I have my car, so more facility.
 
What I am thinking is that I should do a make over of my life. I should have someone seriously in my life. I am so lonely and need someone to rely and nothing much, just be there for me.
I cannot go on like this, rather wasting time while someone could have enjoyed my company.
I just cannot get trapped by M. like this. He will be nothing to me, he is not even a friend to me. Friends are not like that. Friends are happy to be with each other and we, we remain so distant. It is not going to progress like this, NOT AT ALL SHEETAL.
I should give someone else the chance.
I need to look for someone who can share the same interest as me or the least can support and enjoy my company. As from this week, going forward will be missing FINDING Mr Right