subway

well at work today and we were deciding on what to get for lunch so we decided to go to subway which seems normal but i havent been to subway since dad died...sometimes when we would go in there dad would be in there eating his lunch and i would be so happy to see him and stop and give him a big hug!  and i looked around for him today and even thought for a min that he must have gone somewhere else for lunch.... working in the city where you live and where your dad lived is really sad....it was great when he was alive, but now it is constant reminders everywhere and its not like i can just pick up and get a job somewhere else :(  i think after this shift is over i will go home have a cold beer, put my feet up and cry till i fall asleep i have been choking back tears all day......and bonus i got a foot long so i was sad at lunch and dinner too ....i must be stupid today....