stuff, stuff, more stuff

so, things have been going a bit pear shaped lately.  weird stuff.  makes me want to hire someone from New Orleans to come up and rattle bones or a Native American to burn smudge sticks, chant, and bless the four corners.  I know anyone reading this probably already knows about my back, and God knows I'm sick of talking and whining about it.  Still hurts.  'Nuff said.  But little stuff.  For example, my fence fell over.  The white board, Kentucky horse farm looking fence that separates my side yard from the neighbors' yard.  My friend Kelly quickly assessed the damage and said, "Well all you'd really have to do as a stop gap is replace ONE landscape timber, but be sure and cement it in."  I just looked at her with my back throbbing.  Then, my answering machine started playing OUT the last messages left!  I looked at it and saw that it would entail moving the couch out and bending/stooping, so I opted to turn it off, and now it occasionally will turn itself back ON!  I cut my gum on a fried won-ton last night, got home to watch Idol, and I SWEAR my DVR stopped recording it after the envelope guy came up and Ryan Seacrest said, "The winner of American Idol, 2008 ISSSSSSSSSS...David____________!"  I kid you not.  Makes me really hinkey.  I feel like that kid on Peanuts with the cloud of dust, or Eeyore.  On the other hand, I'm really trying to get a better attitude and have a better outlook.  I'm thinking positively and pragmatically.  I see the surgeon Tues. June 3rd and will go from there.  When (if?) I'm in a little better shape, I plan to start going thru and throwing/giving things away in anticipation of an upcoming DOWNSIZE and MOVE.  Oddly enough, I heard my last house is coming back on the market.  I know the neighborhood improved after I left (not BECAUSE I left) and I had the custom lap pool there put in (heaven).  who knows???  The yard was nothing to tend to since the pool took up about a third of it, and no grass would grow out front!  I know two people wanting my house, and it could mean I would have no mortgage and could POSSIBLY put a large down payment on an endless pool which is something I have always wanted but now think is essential.  If someone could come up with a weightlessness suit or portable device, back pain sufferers would pay out the nose.  My pool is such a blessing and the ONLY place I get TOTAL relief.  My faith has taken a nose dive, and I know this is the time I need it most!  I tend to get MAD at God when I need comforting.  I hate I'm such a whiner.  I'm making a conscious effort to count my blessings, and it seems to be helping.  I made it 1-1/2 times around the walking track without pain last time AND saw a mating pair of scissor-tail flycatchers (birds) and my dog liked it, too.  Ok, back says must go NOW!!!  PS Thanks to you who continue to encourage, message, etc.  It means a LOT!