Stuck in a rut

I feel like I'm stuck in a rut.  I don't know how I'm feeling.  Happy or sad.  I feel happy because I'm starting my new job tomorrow but I feel sad to when I start to think too much about life.  I will be going to church in the morning and I will see my Psych tuesday but I wish I could see him Monday because I really need to talk to someone.  I would talk to my family but I'm afraid that they will put me back in the hospital.  It was not all that fun in the hospital.  I get homesick too easy.