Struggling to keep my head above the waves of life...

8:50PM - Tuesday October 6th / 2009 STRUGGLING TO KEEP MY HEAD ABOVE WATER My head is full of decisions long past due, screaming to be made.... The options that are possible, and their future outcomes crowd inside my head, and I feel myself pushing through, trying to find a footing, a voice, a view.... of anything to resuce myself from the stress,.... the depression,... the despair,.... the sadness..... I'm in University, struggling to stay in school, I've been kicked out multiple times, and each time I get back in, but each time I question if its the right thing to do........ I am currently diagnosed with: Depression, Agoraphobia, and Social Anxiety.......I'm dealing with those everyday, and it isn't easy,... I've been this way for soooo long that i don't recognize what I'm doing or even how I'm acting.... Currently I'm trying to gain the strength and courage to seek treament for:- ADD/ ADHD (which I was diagnosed with for a month, but now there sure) - Asperger's Syndrome (a form of autism)- Schyzoid Personality Disorder- Multiple Personality Disorders  So you can see why its a struggle, I want to stay in school and finish my degree, but its a long, and teadiess struggle, and I'm so lost as to what to do...  Just a boy, trying to live....